Ive had no safety net for 18 years and I’m tired. I went to a scam school. Ive been homeless, Im chronically ill and have a brain malformation that impacts my quality of life, I’m trans, and i fled the US. I live in a country where I’m trying to learn the language, and its all hard. I have no family connections, and my only living parent has gone full antivax conspiracy theorist. I’m married, and i love my husband, hes very supportive, but i wish I had family. I wish I had a mom or dad I could call and cry on the phone with. I wish I had siblings I could confide in. I wish I had someone I could call for advice, or even just to bitch to. But i have none of that and ive been pulling myself up by the bootstraps through bankruptcy (medical debt), homelessness, and chronic illness.

I often get told how “strong” I am. I dont want to be strong. I want to be vulnerable and have someone take these responsibilities from me occasionally.