It’s the difference between feeling like doing it and having to fight every fiber of your being to stop yourself from doing it.
In the moment it’s a pure instinctual reaction that you have to consciously ignore. Like touching a burning stove but not removing your hand. It goes against every instinct. Every rationality.
It’s like everything in you wants to harm someone despite knowing it’s morally wrong. It’s a constant battle between instinct and conscious morality.
I WANT to hurt people. I CHOOSE not to. Because I understand my feelings are wrong. But the feelings are still there
Damn, to be honest that just seems like quite normal reactions to me…
It’s the difference between feeling like doing it and having to fight every fiber of your being to stop yourself from doing it.
In the moment it’s a pure instinctual reaction that you have to consciously ignore. Like touching a burning stove but not removing your hand. It goes against every instinct. Every rationality.
It’s like everything in you wants to harm someone despite knowing it’s morally wrong. It’s a constant battle between instinct and conscious morality.
I WANT to hurt people. I CHOOSE not to. Because I understand my feelings are wrong. But the feelings are still there